An update

Hey there readers!

Are you out there?

I am still here… Kind of.

It has been over a year since I wrote my last blog. It was a struggle. Due to the nature of my illness, basic functioning has been hard and any energy I have for productivity goes into my PhD (when I am able).

I have a lot I could write about. I could write about coping with my chronic illness, I could write about my autism diagnosis. I could write about my new understanding of therapy and what I’ve lost, and gained, during the process of trying to heal both physically and mentally.

I liked writing to you. It felt like I was making people feel things and perhaps even helping them. This blog was my favourite way to connect with people.

I am undecided about whether I want to write about myself again. I am too tired (physically, mentally, spiritually) and am working on living in the present, and focusing on being cosy. I deserve softness, and excavating my soul for the page can be brutal. Writing was cathartic, but I need to feel in my body, not just the page, and process my emotions properly.

I’m not the person I used to write about any longer, nor do I want to be.

I will, however, be interested in seeing how my writing has changed, if I choose to write like this again.

There’s a lot I want to do, when I’m well enough to do it.

I am hopeful.

For now, I wanted to let you know I have updated my website and will no longer be posting resources in relation to mental or physical health. The pages are still there if you dig, but will not be a feature.

I am doing ok. I hope you are too, and I hope that I will be strong enough to write for you again.

Gabe.